Thoughts On Validation (1/19/18)
val·i·da·tion
ˌvaləˈdāSH(ə)n/
noun
noun: validation; plural noun: validations
the action of checking or proving the validity or accuracy of something.
"the technique requires validation in controlled trials"
the action of making or declaring something legally or officially acceptable.
"new courses, subject to validation, include an MSc in Urban Forestry"
recognition or affirmation that a person or their feelings or opinions are valid or worthwhile.
"they have exaggerated needs for acceptance and validation"
So
I've been thinking about validation. My decision to share things comes from the idea that it's better out in the world in some way than sitting with me. But, sometimes I wonder if I just want validation for what I create? Like I draw so much that I figure it's better out there than sitting in a book that only I would see. That makes sense, right? Right. Although sometimes I fear it's validation or it plays a bigger role than I'm aware of. Like, to make all the time and energy I spent on what I draw matter. To make it measurable I suppose. I don't do that with my writing aside from the obvious blog stuff (a story for another day). The thought bothers me a lot. The thought of such a desire fueling me is not a pleasant one. Recently I realized while writing something I don't need to show it off to know it's good. I don't need an outside party to tell me or give approval. That was an interesting feeling. Empowering maybe? That confidence in your ability is warm. Lol such a corny way to describe it but it's a warm feeling when you make or do something and you know it's good. You don't need a second opinion, you know what it is. Most times when I draw stuff I don't get that at all. Rarely I should say. I've learned to accept what I make and that last post with the video about the professional mentality helped a lot. As well as conversations with other people who make things but still the feeling hits me. There's still a lot I need to work on obviously but I don't need, approval. A pat on the back. Praise. You don't either. Whether you're a creative/creator or not. At least that's what I think. More obvious things.
