Using Our Time To Invest In Ourselves (12/2/17)

I was talking to my boy and we were talking about shitty video games that we enjoy regardless of it's shitty nature lol regular cool stuff. But, it came back to something we often discuss and something that relates directly to my "More Action" way of thinking. We play games to escape, right? Even momentarily, for the briefest amount of time. Even if you don't play video games you most likely have something that does the same thing so don't feel excluded or anything. Balance is hard. Especially in conditions that aren't the best so why not turn on that game or whatever your escape is and zone out? I've done it, I'm not trying to attack or talk down on anybody but from my own experience and from what I've seen with others too much of this is, well bad. I read the Power of Habit, well I listened to it. Good book btw. It taught me about the reward system which is very basic, it's established within us at a young age. Do something good/what you have to do and you get something you want. I used this to regulate how I play my games. As well as the rewiring stuff, you get an urge to do something, replace the action. So like, if I got the urge to play I'll replace that action with something more productive or that'll benefit me like drawing for practice or whatever. Then my reward will be that leisure time. Gaming, whatever it is it's cool because I earned it. i did what i had to do. It's so simple but I think we lose track of this the older we get. The more control we gain over doing what we want the easier it is to slip up and develop these habits that aren't really helping us. We cannot over indulge in a dopamine feeding, false accomplishment delivering vice. The key is balance, we can't sit and feel like we accomplished things when in reality we haven't. At least not for ourselves. We work and/or go to school, for hours. Have to deal with a commute, maybe some annoying shit went down, some stressful shit, whatever. We get home, and it's our time. Our time to invest in ourselves but we're so drained and tired. Too tired to do anything meaningful for ourselves. It's not a bad thing to want to relax after working for somebody else. Working for something others told you need to succeed. Working for validation of reaching a standard that the majority of the people in our community peak at. We get home and we're like "fuck it, who's online?" That is not bad but too much is. Why don't we give ourselves the time we give others. I often feel like when I convey these feelings and thoughts to my friends they choose not to hear me. Regular lol.