Nothing Worth Sharing AKA Hunting monsters and Time Chamber sessions (1/31/18)
Yo.
I haven't drawn anything in like a week or two. It feels weird, like slacking mixed with betrayal. My brother and I just spoke on betrayal ironically but that's another story. I've had things to write about so I've been doing that. In my time of need, where I was supposed to respond with my outlets, my skills ( I hate the word talent lol) and all that stuff. I didn't.
So, that one moment that served as a test for these things so obvious. So advantageous for growth and turning things into a reason to create. And I failed. That's more than ok though, really.
I'm a pretty harsh judge, I'm wondering if failed was the right word lol but whatever. I don't think this whole thing would work if I was a know it all who didn't fail anyways. So, in that moment I did fail. I didn't see the point in creating anything which made me think about doing it overall. So I haven't done it, I didn't quit. I don't think I have I just haven't been doing that but other things hit me so I don't think it's bad or a real loss. Aside from drawing and writing I've been learning a fighting game. I like learning those kind of games specifically because it's like a puzzle. Figuring out what works and the more creative and resourceful you are the cooler things you can do. The downside is the time consuming nature of it, which comes with every skill. With games in particular it's sometimes hard to justify it in my mind. Like, this genre especially demands time and that's cool. Really it is, but sometimes I'm like, "it's not like I'm going to be a pro or anything, who cares if I'm good or not?". I find this mentality to be somewhat demeaning and dangerous. That's like saying, playing basketball is pointless unless you going to the NBA. Making music is pointless unless you're going mainstream. Beware of such thinking, I fall victim to it and I think it's common. With that being said I often struggle with the games are a waste of time vs games are a nice hobby argument in my head.
Monster Hunter World is pretty cool too. Pretty blunt title. You hunt monsters. Big, humungus monsters. You even get this cool little cat sidekick. I'm a sucker for furry companions. That system is pretty deep but it's an enjoyable game. More so with people. Friends and such. I've had a nice time with the little over 2hrs spent on it.
My brother Elias told me sometimes we need a break from the things we love. I don't disagree with that. But, I am questioning my passion. That love I'm supposed to have for what I do. Interesting times.
Later
